Catching up on old Youtube subscriptions

Insight.
We all have it in one form or another.
But neglect we have that as well.

I haven't been doing a great job on watching old subscriptions. People on Youtube I would follow for years and years. Eons and eons are waiting at the helms just cobwebbed out.

I have put them on the shelf. Because life got so fucking busy.  But in college I had my real friends but I also had my Youtube friends. Youtube friends exist for our entertainment. And to be honest friends my entertainment level hasn't been good this past month. When you think about food or sleeping on the ground it is tough. Or a job.

I need to dig back to my old Youtube subscriptions and live on the internet once more. I hurt my knee playing Pokemon Go. I was just walking but I am over doing it.

I need to come back to Youtube in a big way. Kev Jumba isn't there. Youtube is different but we have to adapt.

Hello Youtube my old friend once again. Hello Athene. There are new kids on Youtube Matpat, Markiplier and others. But I miss my old subscriptions.

-V

Windows 7 eats Windows 10 eats 7.

I started with fucking Windows 7 .

I upgraded to the buggy Windows 10. Albeit, I expected a very ugly OS but I got something entirely new and different. Cortana is not that. And be smart about your privacy.

But I wanted to reformat my computer. I was ready and willing. And then a literal storm hit where I lived and everything got fucked. My computer would not boot from an OS because my dad shut off the OS load. It was so bad!

I freaked out! Why wouldn't I . There was an article due that night. So I was livid. So much in fact I didn't talk with my idiot father for three days. Who does dumb shit like that but doesn't claim responsibility.

Ahem...Hilary!

So yeah it was terrible. My buddy Steve-o came through and saved my bacon. I am not sure I have any more bacon but maybe a bit. So now Windows 7 is what I have and I am happy. But I can't update it because I don't want to register it.

A) Because if I do that he can't really re-use his install disc.
B) And b the Windows 7 always has security flaws.

So I am happy with what I have and might have no choice to register it at some point and get 10.

Back to the tough drawing board

When you go to school for Journalism and a small broadcasting job doesn't want you.

I mean what can I do better.

I can't just at- will write news articles. I don't have relevant experience and screw doing internships that don't pay.

But--

Let me tell you:

Right now I am writing. I write daily. I am active. I write for a website doing 2 articles a week.
I am back to being unemployed but it is very difficult when you're qualified for a job of this calibur and can't get it.

I am really angry right now but have to turn into positive energy. I just feel exhausted applying for jobs.
That is the drawing board.

Hurricane of confusion

I feel like I am confused very easily right now.
I am in an unstable situation with awful pay.
 I can't really do much but stand idle.

Just the thought of trusting people is fucking pathetic.

Just pathetic.

My parent's don't understand the word trust. First it was betrayal then forgiveness and back to no trust.
What the fuck is wrong with them.

If they say something I expect them to do it.

Yet, they sit idle and just explain how they would do something.

My life is a bloody fucking mess right now.

I WANT STABILITY.

Is that too much to ask for?

Really, is it fucking really that much to ask for?

-V

My uncle died

Yes, my uncle died.

Yes, I am sad.

But I must move on for the fallen.


I am trying to take things one microcosm at a time.

And it is hard because I am in a stressful situation.

-I live with three people.

-One of them is a fucking slob.


-I can't get my mail.


So I just strive to improve the situation. Prayer is in some order.

Peace!

Stairway Down

I stayed at my sister's house yesterday.
I have been jet lagged for at least a couple days.

Anyway, she told me to go to sleep. And I obliged. But the lights were very dim.
Some flush type lights I had guessed. And then two other lights. The dimness was representative of a very dim orange glow.

But as I was sleeping I was distressed. I have no idea how to explain it but there was a mix of blue lights coming from somewhere

Where?

I have no fucking idea. I guessed maybe a usb outlet. Yeah, that must have been it. Though, maybe I was having a nightmare. But I swore to fuck that there were stairs on each side of me opening up.

There were no stairs.

Must have been my dream.

But it wigged me out all together.

I don't really know how to explain it. Stairs that stretched down and the light was off. But I felt them. Or something like them.



A lot is going on:
I have moved to  a new  place.
My uncle was at a hospice.
I just came back from Korea.
Maybe it was a full fledged culmination of all that is going on in my life.



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I am really not sure.

-V

To Hongdae or not to Hongdae

Hongdae is in Seoul,Korea and this place is very hip.

Located near Meyongdong ; Hongdae boasts 20- something Koreans. There are bars,shops and 7% alcohol beers.