Systemic Racism : Justice for Floyd

Systemic Racism

Why do we continue to leap backwards?

Why is there senseless rioting and looting and violence?

You do not take your anger out on property. The buildings are burning in Minnesota. There are curfews all the fuck around even in Denver.

How did we get here?

We got here because we don't understand loving another human.We got here because black people have been battling systemic oppression from white people a fuck long of a time. We got here because of ignorance.

We got here because racism is a learned behavior.

The names already etched in history is horrendous.  By senseless violence. Nipsey would be outraged over the death of George Floyd . Who has become a symbol of change in the USA. In our country where hypocrites and liars prevail. Systemic corruption bleeds into our society and institutions. 

But racism is still extremely volatile and ugly. It is never right to be racist. There is a call on white people to join the fight of the minority and black people. And it is the right call. Those 4 officers that watched Floyd die as he could not breathe and he cried out "I Can't Breathe" should be all tried for blatant murder. Arresting one officer is not enough. All of them should die slow deaths and justice might be served. It is a heinous act to not do a goddamn thing, when a man is dying and subdued. 

Above all we as a country continue to bleed internally. We are ravaged with Covid -19 in which life will never be the same. We are also headed to a big recession that is unavoidable. Care is the only thing that will get us through this time. God, is watching and we need to rely on him to pull us through. Because if we try any type of way , we will fail.

We need peace. 
We need triumph.

We need love.

We need to fight for black lives matter.

I was guilty of putting all lives matter. But this is not the case. First black lives have to matter. Black people are not just athletes as Jalen Rose said. They are not just goddamn entertainers, rappers and football players, or politicians. They are human beings. Human beings. They don't deserve to just keep appearing on the news for ratings. They deserve to live without scrutiny, judgement, or fear of a white person calling the cops on them for being suspicious.

MLKJ junior already addressed this.

Malcolm X addressed this.

But is the United States listening? Are you listening ?

Are white people listening?

Let's fucking hope so. Because if not history is being made currently in the form of the wrong type of racist fucking ugly history, we need to correct this course.

There has gotta be a discussion. Trayvon's death  was not enough?  Breona Taylor? Arbery?

"It seems sickly fitting that those killed by police today are no longer transformed into the anointed or the condemned, but, thanks to more advanced and available technology, they become hashtags. With a flood of more videotaped killings, a hashtag seems a brutally meager epitaph, a mere declaration that a victim of police violence was once alive, human, and didn't merit having her or his life stolen.

Unfortunately, the increased visibility of trauma and death at the hands of cops isn't doing as much as it should be. The legacy of our increased exposure to black death has merely been the deadening of our collective senses." -Jamil Smith  Senior Writer at Rolling Stone.

https://www.npr.org/2020/05/29/865261916/a-decade-of-watching-black-people-die

According to NPR.

Dreamscape

Dreamscape.

Last night because I had to pee super bad at something like 2a.m. -3 in the morning I went back to sleep, ya know-- and I hit REM hard!

I can only remember slivers of my dream. Were we looking for a clue?

Was it my roommate and his boyfriend?

I can't remember too much last night.

I remember maybe a white house and nothing too nuts was going on. I think maybe the local kids were breaking into just rows and infinite rows of cars. Needless to say it was odd because there was flashes of dream but as I awoke I forgot half of the dream.

Why were there kids stealing cars. Why was my roommate and his bf in the dream? What was the purpose. All the while it was an ambiguity cloud. 

I didn't realize how long my ass slept. But it was a good long while.

Odd. 

I think I got up at 1p.m. and I have been getting up from anywhere from 11:30 a.m., 9a.m., and then sometimes really shitty sleep.

Isolation

The world has practically gone mad.
Low toilet paper rolls.
People locked in their houses with movies and Netflix and Hulu.
And yet eventually boredom will set in.
Yes, it is only a matter of time.

The last time I worked was March 4th. As this putrid month should end it would be nice. We're under 7 days for it to end.
But then what?
Will April be the same?
I hope not.

This part of the year Iam normally am extremely busy. Now I am just trying to figure out what to do. I had a decent plan for a little while. After the 5th it was play video games. But even that has grown a little tiresome. Switching games has been helpful. I broke away from Madden 20 to play NHL 19. But I think even that has its limits. And very rarely can I watch a tv show from start to finish.   I'll bounce around shows. But I need to talk with someone about sports. And I did get that a day a go. And it felt nice to discuss Denver's brand new players. Without sports I am less occupied.

I have drawn two things this much and already feel like my wrist needs a break. Did I do that scratchboard in February?

On top of this shit show of a month or to add to it. My mouse decided to go nuts. It wakes up itself and the usb power is off. I found a solution! The fucking keyboard did the same shit. After a full month of investigating you have to set your power to something better. I dunno it really made me irritated. And then my Hyper X headphones finally died. And I am waiting on new headphones but that's all I am doing is waiting. Waiting for the world to be normal. Waiting for headphones. Waiting to go back to work. They say maybe April 17th. But I do not trust them.

I drew something yesterday and was pretty happy about it. But if I continually draw as I mentioned the wrist will hurt.

I guess right now it is a combination of movies, video games, and shows to occupy my time. I am still reading!

Dreams, Dreams, Plane

So my friend Banetto was in my dream.

Dream 1) We were all on this cheese wagon and we were rocking to and fro but it was not cloudy. In fact, it was hella sunny. Which is odd because you think about rain and thunderclouds in these sorts of dreams. He drove us somewhere. Almost, like going off a fucking cliff! But hell what did I know.
The dream ended as we edged towards the cliff. I woke up.


Dream 2) This was crazy I was in a big 727 airplane 737? I don't really remember which goddamn airplane. The plane was not even marked. Normally you see Southwest or Lufthansa or some other marking. This was a white aircraft. Yet, we were going to crash and then we landed in a field? Or something like it. The house was fucking massive it was a criss cut shape. Like it had a dissection of the middle of the house. So you could see everything. The bathtub was vivid in shape but I was being pursued by something. Not shadowy figures but something else entirely and oh god, the children in the next room were heavily breathing there was like a gillion of them. They weren't pointing to anything really just kinda fucking comatose> > <> And then maybe a 50's kitchen. Things got really blurry after that.

-.- :(:?

My latest endeavor

Installing hard drives multiple should be moderately annoying but only moderately .
Technology sometimes will fuck me! I had a plan.

External finally died. The 2nd one to die in a span of 4 years or so. Gameplan: Buy an ssd because I want games on there and to boot the pc very fast and 1 tera is great and it will survive for a very long time. Replace external with more storage. 2 tb.

Okay so today I tried backing more data up. I got my iso...and made sure drivers and install files were on the usb. fdriveshows up on boot but not the file I needed.

Okay so now this is some bullshit. Try fdrive on diff computer. Says that files need tto be fixed. Roomate says no to the fix. Go on my own damn laptop. Can't login to the fucker! Have system disc for laptop. Currently waiting on laptop to reformat...

The Idiot Brigade

When you tell your roommate several times to clean the fucking common area. And I mean months and months and months and he doesn't do it. That is sheer laziness.

Roommate Crab we will call him is so fucking lazy. And it is awful.

We have to show the apartment today at 3p.m. and it is a mess. I cleaned everything else but that is not my responsibility.

Two choices.

That shit gets put in the closest or his room.
He was also up till almost 6a.m.

And he kept me up.

Ju Ju on that beat

The Broncos are a paltry 0-4. And I have written like a man that decidedly gives up on the Broncos.

But with the 2nd hardest schedule do you blame me?

I mean how'd we get here. Not enough plays. Not enough yards. Not enough touchdowns and then lose by 3. By 2. By close fucking margins and we as fans can't take it.
Denver should be 2-2, not 0-4. And for us it breeds contempt.

Why do we have to watch this bullshit?


The Steelers and Denver and Dolphins are in the conversation with who finishes 0-16. What did Fangio inherit?

You have a shutdown corner in Harris Jr. Baubsy has played decent. Simmons has played as Simmons does. But the Linebackers as evidence of this 26-24 loss have shown me they can't make fucking tackles. I love Todd Davis but the other corps is not tackling how they should be and that is I am sorry... on the coaches teaching tack technique. Tackle low and hit the legs. Don't let a big back roll you over.

This is not all on Flacco. He had good drives and a pick. He had good protection. Denver was up 1 point 24-23 and then the Broncos could not stop the charge of the Jags. HORRENDOUS TACKLING DENVER. MY HIGH SCHOOL TACKLES BETTER!

Denver should have made them stop and stopped the other back. Not Fournette.


Vonn and Chubb came to play football! They had sacks. Fournette's career day happened at the lousily named Empower Stadium. Something is off in Broncos country. Finishing in the 4th quarter has been the theme for 4 weeks now. How do they do it?

With a trip to San Diego next week. Denver will drop to 0-5. Fournette is a great back. Ekler may get 200 on this linebacking corps. If they tackle thundering Austin Ekler who is speedier than Fournette like they did today.  The floodgates are not open but exploded with losses. And Denver will find its way winless.

Excuses in four games are horseshit. You're not good currently Denver. Currently. Prove me wrong. Make me believe again.

And the Steelers may follow suit. Are my teams just all bad pro wise?

FUCK!

JUJU where you at? I will tell you. Are you going to be the wideout that gets 1,000 but does not go anywhere this year?