The Dawn of A New Year

 2021- 

The first month has been fucking fantastic! You want to know why?

Why?

Why?

Why?

Because last year towards the beginning of the year my car got hit. Last year towards the beginning of the year everything was dog water, the kids say that right?

Dog water start to the year of 2020.

This year has a different tone.  Although, last year I had to get teeth surgery. I had to get 4 cavities filled. And the most important cavity they didn't fill first? What the hell? Really, the one I came into or the two turned to be four? And flash forward to now and I just got 2 more done?

You have gotta be shitting me. This one. Oh man ! This one was really deep. I got my usual Novocain but they had to go in and give me the gum shot. SHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIT! That one hurt. It still hurts thinking about it.  So you're telling me 5 dentist visits and count 6. 6 dentist visits and each time I am numb. I have felt that feeling three times now. I an not getting used to it.

Also, in January my book of 8 years got its first draft done. I did it! I got my certificate I have been scammed out of for three years. So this has been a fruitful first month. I really hope Feb can continue. But I experienced my first bad day yesterday. Also, lately my roomie/best friend is getting mad. Will call him Trelton. Trelton seems to think it is a okay to bring his girlfriend over 5 days out  of the week. Maybe I am being anal about what is going on but I thought I paid rent here. I have never read Stranger in A Strange Land, but I am beginning to think that maybe I am the foreign creature. And worse is the challenging audacity of his girlfriend. She is okay. But we sure are not best friends or like even great friends. I don't trust her because of her behavior. She pettily called me out on the word mortify at a restaurant. And my friend idly sat there like a car. He didn't say a word. She called me out on the dumbest of things. She is young so you know immaturity is at hand. How could it not be? But then I have been accused in my own place of putting dirty dishes in the cabinet? Small things are beginning to add up. And I am a dumb-ass and keeping score. But their relationship is none of my concern. First off, she doesn't pay rent. She orders me around from time to time. Of course, he is going to side with his girlfriend. I got into a massive fight with him last year. It was the fact she showed up outta nowhere when I had plans to just chill and have isolated time. And she showed up without warning and I was like What the Fuck? So it could be worse. A schedule was made because she doesn't have a goddamn right to just be over here whenever.  I do not hate this person at all but she seems to think that because she got me a Christmas present or a bday present. I must spill everything that is me to her. Nope, you have to earn that and trying to embarrass me in front of my best friend is moving the needle backward.

I also have to talk with Trelton but we did have a mini fight because god forbid--I don't want to hang out with them sometime. Gee, I wonder why. Did I have an attitude . I dunno. I just know that we had a discussion how he is changing his behavior to impress his girlfriend.  Insecurity everyyyyyyyyyyyywhere! I love my friend but you can't just get pushed around because a new person enters his life. And they move at the speed of sound without thinking at all.  Space is a necessity in a relationship. He does not understand. Again, not my place.

It has been forever since I blogged here.

It feels good putting thoughts to paper.

-Annnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnndres.