I am not saying life is hard but what do you get when your family doesn't approve

A good example is right now.

I am in tears as I talk to my buddy. We're just talking about failure.
So why am I crying.
Why am I being a real person and spitting emotion.

Maybe it is because my past doesn't haunt me but my very nature of being hypocritical nature devolves me as a person.

But then I think I have god.


It is not all better but he understands me as a person. So I am not putting myself down but these circumstances and expectations when I try so hard hurt.

They make this cold circle around my body and make me feel like everything accomplished is a waste. Get this my sister laments. Get this certificate because you don't have experience. I have to use this as fuel and prove people wrong.
I am t he underdog in the fight of life. No I haven't lived in a gutter but I have to bite, claw , gna w and other wise fucking get to my goal. I have to. I have to be true to my character.
I don't give up no matter how hard.
So yeah I can cry. It relieves things for me but it does hurt.

I sound like a grown up baby. I am very scared of failure. I want the best for me. I really do but this failure thing digs and claws at my being. Is this the enemy?
Am I my own enemy?

God tells me he loves me. I always feel loved. He's here with me now as I type this and try to wipe away my sad tears. But what do I do?

I have to fight! I have to.
I have to be accountable for who I am as a person. I have to make decisions. I have to be an adult.
It is hard but I am war torn . I can do this!

Avies 2016 we need playoff help.

With the loss to the Preds today 5-2 we need help from the Wild to start losing.
Colorado only has 15 games left and we did add Gelinas and another defense men.

I spaced his name. I believe the Avs haven't given up and will need some luck to lock up a wild card spot. But I didn't get to see the Avs vs Preds today so I am not sure what they have to work on.

That reminds me I need to watch highlights.

We need to start winning Avs. Wait, I think the problem vs. the Preds was the goal tending. Pickard was not good at all in the game.
We need scoring from our lines as well. In the Red Wing game we weren't getting optimal production from our lines.
And we need to clean up the power play. It is not very good.
I am hoping we get these things corrected when we will take on the next team.

Who is it?
I need to look it up.
We play the Coyotes on Monday. Now the Coyotes just beat the red hot Panthers.
So Colorado should play a tough game and win.
We are a better team then them on paper.
Go Avs make a playoff push.
I want postseason hockey.
:)